My 20-year class reunion was Labor Day weekend and it
was a good time…it was so great to catch up with everyone. There were some
people who the last time I saw them was graduation day June 1995.
Part of our reunion was touring our old school and we
went in classrooms, shared stories, tried to remember who did what, who fought
who etc. and laughed until I think we cried.
At the end of that portion I remember thinking I didn’t
go to our 10-year class reunion because I felt like I wasn’t where I wanted to
be in my life and was afraid of the judgment and/or of being questioned.
As I spent the weekend with my classmates I thought no
one really cares if I’m married, if I have kids, if I’m making the big bucks
this really is about reminiscing and being thankful that most of us are still
here to celebrate.
So, what I learned is that geez get out of my head
sometime, stop living in my feelings, and try to enjoy the NOW. No one knows what the future holds (well God) but if I keep
living in my feelings and worrying about my future I’m going to miss my right now.
So, another one of my goals for this journey is just to live…now those are 3 simple
words but for someone like me it is probably going to be one of the hardest
things I will ever try to do.
I don’t know
that I have ever lived in the moment, I am always thinking about my next thing.
But it is worth a shot…to just live and not think about
what tomorrow brings because if I’m being really honest tomorrow is not
promised to any of us so I need to just enjoy my here and now!
Now, will I do it is the question…I have no idea BUT I’m going to try and that’s all I
can do right.
Signed,
Almost 40
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