I AM NOT
making any resolutions for the New Year because I have never ever in life kept one. And let’s be real I know I need to
lose weight and eat healthier (these are the common ones) but that is something
I should just do a New Year is not going to make me more or less focused. How
do I know because it never has. But
I’m working on it.
I really thought hard about what I want my 2016 to look like not so much what I am
going to do but who will I be. And then it hit me…10 years ago this week I moved here and it was kind of on a whim. I
felt like I just wasn’t doing anything in Chattanooga so I needed to go. I also wanted to work in my major (Mass
Communications with an emphasis in Journalism) and it wasn’t happening in
Chattanooga.
I applied to places in Atlanta and Nashville and got
nothing. Finally I called a newspaper in Gallatin, TN that I had an internship
with when I was in undergrad. They were looking for a Crime beat reporter and
asked could I come up for an interview and a writing test. I was offered the
job and in about a month’s time (if I am remembering correctly…I am almost 40
LOL) I had to find a place to live, fill up an apartment and get started.
Thank God for my family because I was living with my
parents so all I had was clothes and shoes they got everything for me and I was
off.
My first few years here I felt like I was killing it…I
got an MBA, bought a new car, and a house and then it stopped. I feel like ever
since I closed on my house I have not did
anything spectacular…nothing to write home about.
I feel like I have spent these last few years trying
to see what’s next. I have just been focused on finding a job I LOVE, making enough money to really
live, wishing, praying for a date, a boyfriend, a fiancé , a husband, and a
baby. It’s like I have missed out on life trying to see what’s next.
So, for 2016
I want to try to just live and enjoy life! Not worry about tomorrow because as
we all know nobody knows what tomorrow holds but the man upstairs. I want to
just live in the moment…enjoy every moment as if it’s my last. I am just going
to follow Jesus and live my journey as it was written.
One of my new favorite songs is by Tina Campbell
called Destiny…I am going to put a little snippet below but the video is
attached. Please take a few minutes to listen it will bless you.
I've got a vision and a purpose
A divine destiny
It may not look like it right now
But faith ain't what I see
It is the things I hope for
believing that it will come
And no matter how long it takes
I know God's will shall be done
A divine destiny
It may not look like it right now
But faith ain't what I see
It is the things I hope for
believing that it will come
And no matter how long it takes
I know God's will shall be done
I know there is a vision and purpose for my life and
I think I have been trying to force it but I am just going to Let Go, and Let
God and it will happen in HIS time!
I’m not saying I am not going to have moments and
wonder why it hasn’t happened yet but I am going to work really hard to not
focus on it and just enjoy life with my family and friends. Because really what
will be, will be. I have been stressing and worrying the last few years and we
see what that has got me…LOTS of
headaches!
Happy New Year all…I hope your 2016 is everything
you hope it will be!
Signed,
Almost 40
Peace to 2015!!! #firstselfieof2016 Destiny by Tina Campbell |
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